I’m just days away from flying out to see my old labmates, my previous boss and the remaining friends that have yet to defend at my old school. It feels warm and familiar, to drive around the places I left last July, to meet and greet people, to celebrate my PhD all formal. I’m excited to be around familiar faces, to go back and enjoy old sights, sounds and feelings. When I look back at those 6 years, it feels surreal, like it almost didn’t happen, but it did. It’s all real. I’m a postdoc now, and I have moved on somewhat, though it pains me to be far from the familiarity of it all. Don’t get me wrong, I’m finally letting my guard down and enjoying life in Canada to the fullest. A few weeks back I had this moment, almost an epiphan,y about how life used to be, and how it is now. How things keep on moving, soon after one is done, and that my life, career path and success only started in grad school, and I have thousands of miles to travel still.
I bought a dress I thought I could afford, it’s lovely and colourful, and I’m excited to be there. I also purchased an awesome pair of flats, since the graduation guidelines encourage students to wear nice but comfy clothes, and shoes which facilitate moving around flawlessly, effortlessly, and, in the event of rain, allow you to run to a safe haven until things calm down I opted for that. I get into town late, so I will have to wake up extra early, pick up my gown and hope and pray that my pevious PI and friends will find the graduation spot.
My parents cannot be there, and the BF and a bunch of grad school friends will meet me there.
In other news, I have yet to achieve concrete results for my project. I can safely say now that those first months in which I was doing 2 to 3 FPLC runs (per day) with all sorts of columns were not a waste, as I have my protein reservoir stocked with some of my most needed materials. But, I go through it so fast it’s crazy, so I’m gearing up to spend a few more weeks stocking up. Since we’ll get tons of summer students, and some grad students are finishing it will be crazy to find the time. I do hope I can spend some quality time doing my thing without too much trouble and I can replenish my protein stock. I have yet to get my hands on heavier equipment and techniques, but I’m hopeful there will be a away in which we can troubleshoot and move ahead with my project. I can truly say it will be a kick ass thing, and I hope that in the year I have left I can achieve something, at least get it on its way so someone else can take over and move it further.
My family is about to welcome a new addition, my nephew which will soon be with us. I cannot wait to hold him in my arms, to say sweet things to him, to savour his presence and soak up some of the goodness that comes with babies.
I’m getting ready for a possible European vacation, for which I’ll give more details once I’m fully convinced I will not be killed for asking for 3 weeks off during the summer. I’m sure the boss is nice enough not to put up a fight, or a nasty face, but still I’m hesitant about asking for vacays, seeing that I haven’t pushed my project extra far. I mean, I have results, the boss has seen them. They’re just not what was expected. And while I’m sure I’m not the culprit, it still makes me feel uncomfortable when I have very little to show and much to try.
Other than that, nothing else is going on for now. Life is good and I’m hoping for bigger, better things.
To all graduate students who will walk this may, enjoy, congratulations. YOU DESERVE IT!