This wait might kill me, or not. Who knows.
As of today, June 15th, 2009, I have yet to schedule a defense date. I don’t know the reasons. Or maybe I do. I guess I’m not assertive enough to stand up to my boss and committee and say say “because of you I’m still stuck in this place and I can’t plan ahead because I have no friggin’ defense date yet.” Please understand that I am a planner, I am BIG on knowing what lies ahead, and I’d love to have a way of planning my next moves.
My worse fear is that I will defend pass my 28th birthday which is coming in the next few weeks. I know, that’s kind of vain and superficial, but I’d love to defend prior to turning 28. I guess that being 27 and saying that I’m done with the PhD will somehow “carry” more prestige than saying that I finished it at 28. The truth is that the thesis is written completely and ready to be sent out to my committee. My talk needs to be edited and polished (nothing too exhaustive) … and of course I need to get my committee to be in town on the same day, at the same time, in the same room and agree that the thesis kicks a** and that I can go.
On the bright side, I still get to pay for the credit card debts while I’m here and I don’t have to worry about moving costs yet. My BF will be on his way to his well deserved vacay in a few days and I’ll stay here, trying to sell furniture and some odds and ends to hopefully help me get some cash before I relocate.
I guess that the wait is what bothers me, that and the fact that I love to plan, but I really can’t until all the dates are set.
Oh well, so be it. In the meantime, I need to get back to business and edit the talk.
’til next time, I’m still 27 and trying to get a PhD 🙂